My illusionary so called
planning for months on quitting ‘Life as Usual’ ended with a
realization that all this while I was only working towards finding the
answer of the most elementary question – ‘Should I’ or ‘Should I not’…
Effectuation has always been easy for me with the resolution of that
elementary question.
So I started…. Only to realize with time that my bucket ratio of insufficiencies are way to higher. Starting with my incomplete implementation plan to insufficient bank balance to inaccurate know-hows of the whole coming one year, I was all set to move. Topping it all, had a credit card with no known information and a mobile phone with no SIM. But I am good at playing the game with having a full proof opinion about everything (This was one of the most important changes that I felt in me as an aftermath of my trip)… For this one I pitched the concept of ‘Analysis Paralysis’ to myself….Too much planning will only make things and head more complicated.
In the whole pool of insufficiencies, what I had in abundance was 1.My determination, 2.Country Information Guide book and, 3. My relationships. The combo of the stated did it for me. They made me crazy but they put me in peace more.. they made me cry but they made me laugh more.. they made me hate them but they made me love them more. With time I got so many voluntary donations in cash and kind from various sources and ways I never imagined. But trust me – I earned it… I earned it all. My insufficient commencement on all aspects of my decision later became my learnings.. Made me a better self.
One says ‘You don’t plan at all.. you decide and jump’. True its put me into a lot of trouble but then I asked for it. I think that’s ME. And with the same attitude over a decade now, I broadly regret Nothing.
Quitting Engineering – I gained all the corporate achievements that I would have otherwise too.
Relationship break-up – I met Kunal and he is the best in his own ways.
No wedding till 30 (Believe in marrying only for the right reason) – Made me venturous and an individual of my own (Psycho) ;-)
Leaving my most comfortable and loving city – Introduced me to various other human kinds and aspects of life.
Quitting my job and Life as Usual – Benefited me in so many ways I am still wondering and is yet to be penned down.
That doesn’t mean my way is the right way… it just means my way could be a way :-) Love!
So I started…. Only to realize with time that my bucket ratio of insufficiencies are way to higher. Starting with my incomplete implementation plan to insufficient bank balance to inaccurate know-hows of the whole coming one year, I was all set to move. Topping it all, had a credit card with no known information and a mobile phone with no SIM. But I am good at playing the game with having a full proof opinion about everything (This was one of the most important changes that I felt in me as an aftermath of my trip)… For this one I pitched the concept of ‘Analysis Paralysis’ to myself….Too much planning will only make things and head more complicated.
In the whole pool of insufficiencies, what I had in abundance was 1.My determination, 2.Country Information Guide book and, 3. My relationships. The combo of the stated did it for me. They made me crazy but they put me in peace more.. they made me cry but they made me laugh more.. they made me hate them but they made me love them more. With time I got so many voluntary donations in cash and kind from various sources and ways I never imagined. But trust me – I earned it… I earned it all. My insufficient commencement on all aspects of my decision later became my learnings.. Made me a better self.
One says ‘You don’t plan at all.. you decide and jump’. True its put me into a lot of trouble but then I asked for it. I think that’s ME. And with the same attitude over a decade now, I broadly regret Nothing.
Quitting Engineering – I gained all the corporate achievements that I would have otherwise too.
Relationship break-up – I met Kunal and he is the best in his own ways.
No wedding till 30 (Believe in marrying only for the right reason) – Made me venturous and an individual of my own (Psycho) ;-)
Leaving my most comfortable and loving city – Introduced me to various other human kinds and aspects of life.
Quitting my job and Life as Usual – Benefited me in so many ways I am still wondering and is yet to be penned down.
That doesn’t mean my way is the right way… it just means my way could be a way :-) Love!
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